Just thought I'd share some pics from our adventure in the world of cinnamon rolls!!!
And they tasted yummy!!!Sunday, February 7, 2010
Cinnamon Rolls!!!
Just thought I'd share some pics from our adventure in the world of cinnamon rolls!!!And they tasted yummy!!!
Friday, January 29, 2010
In The Good Times and The Bad...
During my walk this morning I was listening to my Pandora and the song "God Alone" came on. I'm so glad my hands were free because it didn't take long to raise them in praise and surrender to my God! The verse "...and right now, in the good times and bad, You are on Your throne, You are God alone..." brought bitter and sweet visions to my mind. I saw sweet joy in bringing our baby girl home after 4 nights in the hospital...I saw sadness and brokenness of the people in Haiti...I praised God for my amazing husband who has taught me more about God's love and forgiveness than I ever would have realized on my own...My heart hurt and tears welled in my eyes for one of my 7th grade teachers who is going through stage 4 cancer...I thought of the great things The Church could do and be if we followed His will and His Passion and never stopped giving Him our dreams...
I have so much to express about my stay in the hospital with Hannah (my tv was out; so, I've been telling everyone it was the most expensive spiritual retreat ever!), but I just had to pour out my heart this morning. Last night, though extremely tired, I was troubled in spirit and couldn't get to sleep right away. Though many things are unfolding beautifully and to my family's benefit right now, I am well aware of the despair of this world and my failings. Last night instead of sweet dreams, these thoughts invaded my mind and took over my emotions.
At the forefront of my mind is the upcoming episode of Extreme Home Makeover. The featured lady was my 7th grade Social Studies teacher (I believe that's the right subject). The last time I saw Mrs. Creasy she was pregnant with her first daughter; now she has three. Her story centers around the fact that she is in stage 4 of whatever cancer has taken over her body. I told Nathan last night that I have to watch this episode, but am a little wary of doing it. I saw her face on the preview and it still seems unbelievable to me. The tragedy that is cancer affects so many; but when it affects someone you know it's just too real. When it's someone else that you don't know very well you can get by without it "touching" you too much; though I'm not sure this should ever be the case. To be honest I haven't yet cried out to God for my former teacher or her family because I'm just at a loss as to how and what; thankfully He hears my "groanings" and makes intercession for me!
Next to come up was a time recently when my sinful nature showed her ugly head. The effects have been intense, and I have to keep reminding myself of God's forgiveness and unending love. Just when you think you've overcome and become someone who would "never do that again", you do that again! It is just another lesson on God's grace and His strength. I will never be able to be like Him in my own way or strength...I cannot for one moment try to live this life by myself or forget to lean on Him in every circumstance! The instance I'm speaking of has left a very sensitive scar, and I'm thankful! I need to feel the pain of turning from His peace and help and trying to handle it myself - in my own way. It is also a sweet reminder of His love, His faithfulness with this girl, and the Hope that I find only in a life lived hidden in Him!
(continued on Sunday morning...) So, two days later I can't recall all that I had on my mind that night, except the two mentioned above. (Oh, I think it had a lot to do with my boys, motherhood, marriage - my whole life! That's a lot to tackle in one night!)
Now, I do need to conclude this blog and actually get it posted...it's nice to finish atleast one thing a day:)
In conclusion to my thoughts, I would just like to pass on the lesson I learned during my "home-church" this morning: Give thanks...in everything! (1 Thess. 5:18) Focus on the "in everything". I found that I had been giving thanks a lot for the apparent blessings in my life (a good thing to do) but had not spend focused time thanking God for the hidden blessings...the blessings to come from the sufferings, trouble, struggles in my life and in the lives of others. So, after recognizing the call, I dropped to my knees and began a most unusual conversation for me; I thanked God for Hannah's hospital stay, for the hard lessons Nathan and I have been learning, for my failures (one in particular that is like the thorn in my flesh!), for Mrs. Creasy's illness, for the Cross. Please realize this was hard and at times seemed wrong (thanking God for some else's illness!), but I did so in faith. I trust that since God has not said "No" to these circumstances that He has a great big "Yes" or plan or good to come from them. I must believe Him when He says He has a good future and not harm in store for those who love Him. I must believe Him because He is Faithful and never once has He denied His nature and not been!
That's it; my conclusion is concluded. I pray I will continue to live this day and the next with these truths in mind; I pray you, friends, will recognize His many blessings in your lives (and trust in others to come) and not hesitate or wait to "Give thanks...in everything!"
I have so much to express about my stay in the hospital with Hannah (my tv was out; so, I've been telling everyone it was the most expensive spiritual retreat ever!), but I just had to pour out my heart this morning. Last night, though extremely tired, I was troubled in spirit and couldn't get to sleep right away. Though many things are unfolding beautifully and to my family's benefit right now, I am well aware of the despair of this world and my failings. Last night instead of sweet dreams, these thoughts invaded my mind and took over my emotions.
At the forefront of my mind is the upcoming episode of Extreme Home Makeover. The featured lady was my 7th grade Social Studies teacher (I believe that's the right subject). The last time I saw Mrs. Creasy she was pregnant with her first daughter; now she has three. Her story centers around the fact that she is in stage 4 of whatever cancer has taken over her body. I told Nathan last night that I have to watch this episode, but am a little wary of doing it. I saw her face on the preview and it still seems unbelievable to me. The tragedy that is cancer affects so many; but when it affects someone you know it's just too real. When it's someone else that you don't know very well you can get by without it "touching" you too much; though I'm not sure this should ever be the case. To be honest I haven't yet cried out to God for my former teacher or her family because I'm just at a loss as to how and what; thankfully He hears my "groanings" and makes intercession for me!
Next to come up was a time recently when my sinful nature showed her ugly head. The effects have been intense, and I have to keep reminding myself of God's forgiveness and unending love. Just when you think you've overcome and become someone who would "never do that again", you do that again! It is just another lesson on God's grace and His strength. I will never be able to be like Him in my own way or strength...I cannot for one moment try to live this life by myself or forget to lean on Him in every circumstance! The instance I'm speaking of has left a very sensitive scar, and I'm thankful! I need to feel the pain of turning from His peace and help and trying to handle it myself - in my own way. It is also a sweet reminder of His love, His faithfulness with this girl, and the Hope that I find only in a life lived hidden in Him!
(continued on Sunday morning...) So, two days later I can't recall all that I had on my mind that night, except the two mentioned above. (Oh, I think it had a lot to do with my boys, motherhood, marriage - my whole life! That's a lot to tackle in one night!)
Now, I do need to conclude this blog and actually get it posted...it's nice to finish atleast one thing a day:)
In conclusion to my thoughts, I would just like to pass on the lesson I learned during my "home-church" this morning: Give thanks...in everything! (1 Thess. 5:18) Focus on the "in everything". I found that I had been giving thanks a lot for the apparent blessings in my life (a good thing to do) but had not spend focused time thanking God for the hidden blessings...the blessings to come from the sufferings, trouble, struggles in my life and in the lives of others. So, after recognizing the call, I dropped to my knees and began a most unusual conversation for me; I thanked God for Hannah's hospital stay, for the hard lessons Nathan and I have been learning, for my failures (one in particular that is like the thorn in my flesh!), for Mrs. Creasy's illness, for the Cross. Please realize this was hard and at times seemed wrong (thanking God for some else's illness!), but I did so in faith. I trust that since God has not said "No" to these circumstances that He has a great big "Yes" or plan or good to come from them. I must believe Him when He says He has a good future and not harm in store for those who love Him. I must believe Him because He is Faithful and never once has He denied His nature and not been!
That's it; my conclusion is concluded. I pray I will continue to live this day and the next with these truths in mind; I pray you, friends, will recognize His many blessings in your lives (and trust in others to come) and not hesitate or wait to "Give thanks...in everything!"
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Dear Friends,
I have not written in such a long time. There are a number of reasons...not the right time of day, no computer on hand, nothing good to say, writer’s block! How one gets writer’s block just to compose a letter is beyond me! At any rate, I did want to get something out for Christmas. Nathan and I are waiting to do Christmas cards/letters until after our little Hannah Joy arrives. (So it may be a New Year’s letter; Father help!) This one, though, is just a letter to extend some life and thoughts about life with sweet friends.
This year in a whirl: Well, from January to April all was a typical winter-time for us in Colorado. We did school in the mornings, took Timothy to preschool in the afternoons, and waited anxiously for Daddy to get home in the evenings! Then in April our hopes and prayers were answered and we were pregnant!!! Then in May our praises continued, albeit amidst MUCH sickness, sleepiness, and more sickness! From May through July I can’t really tell you much of what happened since I was in bed most of the time, but believe it or not I did still make it to our Ladies’ Bible Study. It was God-ordained for sure since I really needed that Esther study and I got to know some wonderful new ladies! Then came July through the beginning of September. For about 4 -6 weeks I felt great! I found out I was having a little girl and the spirits around our house just picked up! So did our schedule!
This year we sent both Timothy and Christopher to afternoon school at the local elementary school. (Just so you know, this decision was NOT decided on lightly! I spent the majority of the beginning of the year through my sick-summer praying, crying, praying...) Nathan and I both, in the end, had a peace about sending Timothy to Preschool one more year and about trying Christopher out in the school system. Well, God truly blessed our prayers (and still does!) as we have seen both boys thrive and make way for open doors for relationships for our family. Still we have also seen God answer some prayers about my hope to homeschool; we’ll just say He is making the way and we are waiting daily to take the next step.
Since both of the older boys are away for awhile in the afternoons I have my big-little Aaron all to myself! Now, some days that has just meant we both nap! But some days we meet Daddy for lunch, go shopping, read together, watch a movie, or cuddle up together on Mommy’s bed (that one might just be my favorite!) He truly is a bearer of light (the meaning of his name) and I love spending time with him! I really wanted to make this time with just him and I special since life will change with the blessing of Hannah entering our lives. Not all days have lived up to my expectations but special days won’t end with the coming of a little sister, no, they will increase - of that I am sure!
Let’s see, I made it to September. Ok, well I have to admit that after September my enjoyable pregnant days began to only come in spurts as the evening leg-swelling began. Well, not just leg but up and down and all-around as well. Some days I have thoroughly enjoyed this time of “glowing” and others have found me laying down at night, trading my glow for the shining of tears. Those were nights when the discomfort of my body was just too much to hold in and thanks be to my Father, Who holds every tear, I was able to lie there and give Him my cares. (Please understand that I am fully aware that in comparison to so many mom’s I have had an absolute easy pregnancy! In fact when the doctor asks me if I have any concerns I can truly say ‘no’ since I know there is no remedy for discomfort in the final trimester of pregnancy! Nevertheless, I am thankful that my wonderful husband and comforting Saviour are ever mindful of me and my state of being.)
Autumn is my favorite time of year, so when colder days and evenings descended upon us I found much comfort in the season! I love colorful leaves, hot coffee on chilly mornings and cold evenings, days that are shorter and require some candle-light after the sun goes down over that magnificent mountain in front of our house. I enjoy hot soups, homemade bread, and apple and pumpkin smells from my kitchen (or Panera, hehe). I also enjoy, to the delight of the men in my life, the beginning of football! I can still smell football in the air when I take my walks.
I enjoyed much spoiling from my family this year during Thanksgiving week since I also celebrated my 27th birthday on that Thursday. Nathan is always wonderful at celebrating and makes me feel very special! We put up our Christmas decorations a little early because he wanted me to be able to enjoy them for as long as I could this year. I enjoy coming downstairs in the early morning and plugging in all the lights and watching them twinkle as I listen to Christmas music playing softly in the background. It really is a treat I try to relish for as long as I can get away with! It’s also the perfect environment to sit with a cup of coffee and do devotions in. I love beautiful ambiance’!
So, as I close this letter awaiting Hannah, Christmas, our 7th anniversary, and the beginning of a New Year I have a few thoughts in my heart...
Abide in Christ! (John 14, 15) Can it really be emphasized enough? preached enough? encouraged enough? We must remain in Him; Who else on earth can love us the way He has and does and will? To abide in Him is to obey Him; to obey Him is to love Him; to love Him is to truly abide in Him! Don’t wait until the New Year for this; only dare to wait until the new second has arrived! I pray we all will abide; there will be no greater blessing than this at Christmas time or any other time of the year!
Nathan and I name our children after we have sought out the meanings and pray that they will each live up to them in the will of Christ. As I look forward to our Hannah Joy I can’t help but think of what her name means...Grace and (ofcourse) Joy! I did a brief word-study on these and found such a sweet confirmation on the name we chose for her. Grace, God’s grace is always to be followed by reJOIcing! In the Greek words chosen to express God’s grace and the joy of those who followed Him, the two were always tied. You cannot separate His grace from joy...atleast it was never intended to be that way. I wonder how much we give up of what His grace encompasses and can do in our lives by not reJOIcing over His forgiveness, His love, His mercy. As I continue to wait for this precious addition to our family, I am truly excited about what her life and purpose can be for Christ! What kind of grace and joy will she bring to others? What kind of grace and joy will she spur others to bring to others? If you are His, your name also has the stamp of GRACE and JOY printed on top. We are all in need of His grace and once we have been broken before Him and been healed by His forgiveness, joy is ours to enjoy and live and share in this world. (Our world needs us to NEVER hold back this great gift; “let your light so shine before men,that they may see...and praise your Father in heaven!”)
Finally, some words from Max Lucado... “Be hungry in your quest, relentless in your pilgrimage...Step away from the puny pursuits of possessions and positions and seek your King...Risk whatever it takes to see Christ...Many settle for lesser passions, but the reward goes to those who settle for nothing less than Jesus himself.”
-Just Like Jesus
Let us be diligent as we seek Him at the end of 2009 and the beginning of 2010. I want to be known as someone who has “risked” to see Christ! I don’t want to settle anymore. I want what my King-Father has waiting for me, His Princess-Daughter. I pray that you all, my friends and family, will seek the reward; that is His will, His reason for Passion, your reason for living.
Until,
Anastasia
Daughter of the King, Wife of Nathan, Mother of Christopher, Timothy, Aaron, and Hannah!
I have not written in such a long time. There are a number of reasons...not the right time of day, no computer on hand, nothing good to say, writer’s block! How one gets writer’s block just to compose a letter is beyond me! At any rate, I did want to get something out for Christmas. Nathan and I are waiting to do Christmas cards/letters until after our little Hannah Joy arrives. (So it may be a New Year’s letter; Father help!) This one, though, is just a letter to extend some life and thoughts about life with sweet friends.
This year in a whirl: Well, from January to April all was a typical winter-time for us in Colorado. We did school in the mornings, took Timothy to preschool in the afternoons, and waited anxiously for Daddy to get home in the evenings! Then in April our hopes and prayers were answered and we were pregnant!!! Then in May our praises continued, albeit amidst MUCH sickness, sleepiness, and more sickness! From May through July I can’t really tell you much of what happened since I was in bed most of the time, but believe it or not I did still make it to our Ladies’ Bible Study. It was God-ordained for sure since I really needed that Esther study and I got to know some wonderful new ladies! Then came July through the beginning of September. For about 4 -6 weeks I felt great! I found out I was having a little girl and the spirits around our house just picked up! So did our schedule!
This year we sent both Timothy and Christopher to afternoon school at the local elementary school. (Just so you know, this decision was NOT decided on lightly! I spent the majority of the beginning of the year through my sick-summer praying, crying, praying...) Nathan and I both, in the end, had a peace about sending Timothy to Preschool one more year and about trying Christopher out in the school system. Well, God truly blessed our prayers (and still does!) as we have seen both boys thrive and make way for open doors for relationships for our family. Still we have also seen God answer some prayers about my hope to homeschool; we’ll just say He is making the way and we are waiting daily to take the next step.
Since both of the older boys are away for awhile in the afternoons I have my big-little Aaron all to myself! Now, some days that has just meant we both nap! But some days we meet Daddy for lunch, go shopping, read together, watch a movie, or cuddle up together on Mommy’s bed (that one might just be my favorite!) He truly is a bearer of light (the meaning of his name) and I love spending time with him! I really wanted to make this time with just him and I special since life will change with the blessing of Hannah entering our lives. Not all days have lived up to my expectations but special days won’t end with the coming of a little sister, no, they will increase - of that I am sure!
Let’s see, I made it to September. Ok, well I have to admit that after September my enjoyable pregnant days began to only come in spurts as the evening leg-swelling began. Well, not just leg but up and down and all-around as well. Some days I have thoroughly enjoyed this time of “glowing” and others have found me laying down at night, trading my glow for the shining of tears. Those were nights when the discomfort of my body was just too much to hold in and thanks be to my Father, Who holds every tear, I was able to lie there and give Him my cares. (Please understand that I am fully aware that in comparison to so many mom’s I have had an absolute easy pregnancy! In fact when the doctor asks me if I have any concerns I can truly say ‘no’ since I know there is no remedy for discomfort in the final trimester of pregnancy! Nevertheless, I am thankful that my wonderful husband and comforting Saviour are ever mindful of me and my state of being.)
Autumn is my favorite time of year, so when colder days and evenings descended upon us I found much comfort in the season! I love colorful leaves, hot coffee on chilly mornings and cold evenings, days that are shorter and require some candle-light after the sun goes down over that magnificent mountain in front of our house. I enjoy hot soups, homemade bread, and apple and pumpkin smells from my kitchen (or Panera, hehe). I also enjoy, to the delight of the men in my life, the beginning of football! I can still smell football in the air when I take my walks.
I enjoyed much spoiling from my family this year during Thanksgiving week since I also celebrated my 27th birthday on that Thursday. Nathan is always wonderful at celebrating and makes me feel very special! We put up our Christmas decorations a little early because he wanted me to be able to enjoy them for as long as I could this year. I enjoy coming downstairs in the early morning and plugging in all the lights and watching them twinkle as I listen to Christmas music playing softly in the background. It really is a treat I try to relish for as long as I can get away with! It’s also the perfect environment to sit with a cup of coffee and do devotions in. I love beautiful ambiance’!
So, as I close this letter awaiting Hannah, Christmas, our 7th anniversary, and the beginning of a New Year I have a few thoughts in my heart...
Abide in Christ! (John 14, 15) Can it really be emphasized enough? preached enough? encouraged enough? We must remain in Him; Who else on earth can love us the way He has and does and will? To abide in Him is to obey Him; to obey Him is to love Him; to love Him is to truly abide in Him! Don’t wait until the New Year for this; only dare to wait until the new second has arrived! I pray we all will abide; there will be no greater blessing than this at Christmas time or any other time of the year!
Nathan and I name our children after we have sought out the meanings and pray that they will each live up to them in the will of Christ. As I look forward to our Hannah Joy I can’t help but think of what her name means...Grace and (ofcourse) Joy! I did a brief word-study on these and found such a sweet confirmation on the name we chose for her. Grace, God’s grace is always to be followed by reJOIcing! In the Greek words chosen to express God’s grace and the joy of those who followed Him, the two were always tied. You cannot separate His grace from joy...atleast it was never intended to be that way. I wonder how much we give up of what His grace encompasses and can do in our lives by not reJOIcing over His forgiveness, His love, His mercy. As I continue to wait for this precious addition to our family, I am truly excited about what her life and purpose can be for Christ! What kind of grace and joy will she bring to others? What kind of grace and joy will she spur others to bring to others? If you are His, your name also has the stamp of GRACE and JOY printed on top. We are all in need of His grace and once we have been broken before Him and been healed by His forgiveness, joy is ours to enjoy and live and share in this world. (Our world needs us to NEVER hold back this great gift; “let your light so shine before men,that they may see...and praise your Father in heaven!”)
Finally, some words from Max Lucado... “Be hungry in your quest, relentless in your pilgrimage...Step away from the puny pursuits of possessions and positions and seek your King...Risk whatever it takes to see Christ...Many settle for lesser passions, but the reward goes to those who settle for nothing less than Jesus himself.”
-Just Like Jesus
Let us be diligent as we seek Him at the end of 2009 and the beginning of 2010. I want to be known as someone who has “risked” to see Christ! I don’t want to settle anymore. I want what my King-Father has waiting for me, His Princess-Daughter. I pray that you all, my friends and family, will seek the reward; that is His will, His reason for Passion, your reason for living.
Until,
Anastasia
Daughter of the King, Wife of Nathan, Mother of Christopher, Timothy, Aaron, and Hannah!
Friday, September 4, 2009
In The Wee Small Hours of the Morning...
So, (I'm just gonna jump right in here) ever since I was in college (may have been high school but all I can remember back to is college) my "date" time with God has been 4:30 am. This was not my idea, mind you, but it has become quite a tradition of mine and God's. Sometimes, He is the only one awake for this time together, and sometimes I lie awake going, so "let's talk already!!!" And as is the common relationship among women and men, most of the time He doesn't talk like I'd like Him to! He just wants me to sit there with Him! And at 4:30 in the morning! Well, since I've become pregnant with our blessing number 4 we've been at this date-thing again full swing. Last night was no exception...
I had had an "emotional day" - one where the kids were less focused than usual and I was more frenzied than usual and we all ended up in some grumpy or sad mood by the afternoon. By the time Nathan came home I was ready to go to bed, cry, sleep, wake up and cry some more, sleep...but I would never have admitted that then! After all I still had supper to make, a kitchen to clean, a meeting at my house, and a dinner with the ladies. Crying was just not on the top of the priority list! (It rarely is.)
So, after everything was "checked off" the list of to-do's I did head to bed and prayed while crying about the day, about my worries, about my insecurities, about my children, about our family...thank goodness God never sleeps - my life alone requires Him to have a much longer day than 24 hours! At some point I fell asleep and then at some point before the sun had a chance to make it to our side of the world, I woke up. After about an hour and a half of tossing and turning and NOT sleeping I told God once again that I was listening and to PLEASE speak! Silence...until I finally did drift off for a little while before Nathan's alarm went off.
So I stumbled out of bed this morning, got the kids settled, got me some much needed coffee, and went upstairs for my moment of alone time in the bathroom. I grabbed my Daily Light book (a collection of scriptures for each day) and this, my friends, is what awaited me...
Sit still, my daughter. (Ha!)
Take heed, and be quiet; do not fear or be fainthearted.
Be still, and know that I am God. (My life verse for good reason!)
Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God. (That alone should settle me over my worries!)
The loftiness of man shall be bowed down, and the haughtiness of men shall be brought low; the LORD alone will be exalted in that day.
Mary...sat at Jesus' feet and heard His word.
Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.
In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and confidence shall be your strength. (There's the trick; I just need to hush!)
Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still (He must have been watching last night!)
Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
He will not be afraid of evil tidings; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD. His heart is established.
Whoever believes will not act hastily.
(Ruth 3:18; Isa. 7:4; Ps. 46:10; John 11:40; Isa. 2:17; Luke 10:39, 42; Isa. 30:15; Ps. 4:4; Ps. 37:7; Ps. 112:7-8; Isa. 28:16)
Well, I would have started crying right then and there but my "alone time" had been cut short and I was no longer the only one in the room. (Surprised? Me either:)) So, instead I decided if I had a moment I would "blog" about this wonderful and precious experience between God and I. He has been doing "little things" recently to make me feel special and this morning was no exception. Though I do wonder why, if He was going to give me this sweet message this morning, I had to be up so blasted long before the sun was up, but "His ways are not our ways!"
Anyway, if there are any of my friends out there who are tossing and turning physically, spiritually, or both, may these very alive and active Words from our loving Father encourage, hold, and bless you! He Is - yesterday, today, and forever! May that Truth just really sink in. The very same God who held the Sea back for the Israelites to pass through and caused the sun to remain through a night and another day for Joshua and walked His children through the wilderness for 40 years without letting their clothes or sandals wear out is the One who lives in You! Imagine the Power that resides in you! Now live - humbly, quietly, and being "still" in His presence, yes, but also powerfully in Him!
Blessings!
I had had an "emotional day" - one where the kids were less focused than usual and I was more frenzied than usual and we all ended up in some grumpy or sad mood by the afternoon. By the time Nathan came home I was ready to go to bed, cry, sleep, wake up and cry some more, sleep...but I would never have admitted that then! After all I still had supper to make, a kitchen to clean, a meeting at my house, and a dinner with the ladies. Crying was just not on the top of the priority list! (It rarely is.)
So, after everything was "checked off" the list of to-do's I did head to bed and prayed while crying about the day, about my worries, about my insecurities, about my children, about our family...thank goodness God never sleeps - my life alone requires Him to have a much longer day than 24 hours! At some point I fell asleep and then at some point before the sun had a chance to make it to our side of the world, I woke up. After about an hour and a half of tossing and turning and NOT sleeping I told God once again that I was listening and to PLEASE speak! Silence...until I finally did drift off for a little while before Nathan's alarm went off.
So I stumbled out of bed this morning, got the kids settled, got me some much needed coffee, and went upstairs for my moment of alone time in the bathroom. I grabbed my Daily Light book (a collection of scriptures for each day) and this, my friends, is what awaited me...
Sit still, my daughter. (Ha!)
Take heed, and be quiet; do not fear or be fainthearted.
Be still, and know that I am God. (My life verse for good reason!)
Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God. (That alone should settle me over my worries!)
The loftiness of man shall be bowed down, and the haughtiness of men shall be brought low; the LORD alone will be exalted in that day.
Mary...sat at Jesus' feet and heard His word.
Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.
In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and confidence shall be your strength. (There's the trick; I just need to hush!)
Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still (He must have been watching last night!)
Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
He will not be afraid of evil tidings; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD. His heart is established.
Whoever believes will not act hastily.
(Ruth 3:18; Isa. 7:4; Ps. 46:10; John 11:40; Isa. 2:17; Luke 10:39, 42; Isa. 30:15; Ps. 4:4; Ps. 37:7; Ps. 112:7-8; Isa. 28:16)
Well, I would have started crying right then and there but my "alone time" had been cut short and I was no longer the only one in the room. (Surprised? Me either:)) So, instead I decided if I had a moment I would "blog" about this wonderful and precious experience between God and I. He has been doing "little things" recently to make me feel special and this morning was no exception. Though I do wonder why, if He was going to give me this sweet message this morning, I had to be up so blasted long before the sun was up, but "His ways are not our ways!"
Anyway, if there are any of my friends out there who are tossing and turning physically, spiritually, or both, may these very alive and active Words from our loving Father encourage, hold, and bless you! He Is - yesterday, today, and forever! May that Truth just really sink in. The very same God who held the Sea back for the Israelites to pass through and caused the sun to remain through a night and another day for Joshua and walked His children through the wilderness for 40 years without letting their clothes or sandals wear out is the One who lives in You! Imagine the Power that resides in you! Now live - humbly, quietly, and being "still" in His presence, yes, but also powerfully in Him!
Blessings!
Friday, April 17, 2009
More of My Thoughts on Their Words
Ever since I can remember I have loved to read! My Dad instilled such a love of books in me; (and I believe my mom read to me when she was pregnant with me so that counts too!). Along with a love for the written word, I thrive very much on the comments of many a person. I find great wisdom from such "mentors". I also enjoy passing along these quotes in hopes that others find encouragement by them. So, with a few comments of my own, I leave you with these to ponder...
"...there is always a price to pay for what is worthwhile." -Rosalind Goforth
Is this not true? Whether it be for a relationship, (for love is quite costly - it requires all of ones self given to all of another's!) or for a great goal or for wisdom..."to whom much has been given, much will be required!"
"How often do we attempt work for God to the limit of our incompetency rather than to the limit of God's omnipotency." -Hudson Taylor
In the past year I have read several quotes that are similar to this one. My best guess is that God would have me "get it!" I really ask so little of Him. I ask for things like a little more money to pay for this and that. I ask for "a good day". I've even ventured to ask Him for green grass...in Colorado Springs (that one may not be such a small request, hmmm...). Yet, what of the things "not of this world?" What of the things that "He sees?" What of the riches of heavenly storehouses...surely there's more in there than money! I'm on a spiritual quest to find out what God would have me ask for so that He may give beyond earthly means; that He may give within His means! Can this earth even prepare for such gifts? Can this life? Well, I shall venture to do it nonetheless; I have a feeling I will be overwhelmed so if I pour out onto others so be it and praise Him for it!
"One of the great regrets now as I look back on life, is that I so seldom gave the Lord a chance to use me - so often too busy - too much taken up by lesser things to heed the cry of souls at hand!" -Rosalind Goforth
Can I just shout I DO NOT WANT THIS TO BE MY STORY! I'm sure anyone who knew Mrs. Goforth might beg to differ with her, but usually our own awareness cuts us to the quick. We who love our Savior seek always to be more at his disposal! Tasks must be done - clothes washed, families fed (at my house I might as well leave the refridgerator and cabinets open!), bathrooms cleaned, floors swept (thank goodness for dogs:)), and the such. But have they taken me away from playing cars with my little boys? from sitting and holding my youngest? from dancing and jumping with my very active Timothy? Regretably yes. Sometimes that's ok, even children need to learn to wait, but must they have waited a whole week? Have these "tasks" kept me from calling a dear elderly friend? or writing a letter/card to someone most deserving of encouragement or a thank you? or taking the time to get to know my neighbors! or praying alone with God! I want to "heed the cry of souls at hand!" I want first to recognize them, to hear them! "Oh, Father, may I be as focused on You as Your Son was while here on earth and while He is yet still as He dwells with us."
If you have any quotes you'd like to share with me, I'd love to read them!
"...there is always a price to pay for what is worthwhile." -Rosalind Goforth
Is this not true? Whether it be for a relationship, (for love is quite costly - it requires all of ones self given to all of another's!) or for a great goal or for wisdom..."to whom much has been given, much will be required!"
"How often do we attempt work for God to the limit of our incompetency rather than to the limit of God's omnipotency." -Hudson Taylor
In the past year I have read several quotes that are similar to this one. My best guess is that God would have me "get it!" I really ask so little of Him. I ask for things like a little more money to pay for this and that. I ask for "a good day". I've even ventured to ask Him for green grass...in Colorado Springs (that one may not be such a small request, hmmm...). Yet, what of the things "not of this world?" What of the things that "He sees?" What of the riches of heavenly storehouses...surely there's more in there than money! I'm on a spiritual quest to find out what God would have me ask for so that He may give beyond earthly means; that He may give within His means! Can this earth even prepare for such gifts? Can this life? Well, I shall venture to do it nonetheless; I have a feeling I will be overwhelmed so if I pour out onto others so be it and praise Him for it!
"One of the great regrets now as I look back on life, is that I so seldom gave the Lord a chance to use me - so often too busy - too much taken up by lesser things to heed the cry of souls at hand!" -Rosalind Goforth
Can I just shout I DO NOT WANT THIS TO BE MY STORY! I'm sure anyone who knew Mrs. Goforth might beg to differ with her, but usually our own awareness cuts us to the quick. We who love our Savior seek always to be more at his disposal! Tasks must be done - clothes washed, families fed (at my house I might as well leave the refridgerator and cabinets open!), bathrooms cleaned, floors swept (thank goodness for dogs:)), and the such. But have they taken me away from playing cars with my little boys? from sitting and holding my youngest? from dancing and jumping with my very active Timothy? Regretably yes. Sometimes that's ok, even children need to learn to wait, but must they have waited a whole week? Have these "tasks" kept me from calling a dear elderly friend? or writing a letter/card to someone most deserving of encouragement or a thank you? or taking the time to get to know my neighbors! or praying alone with God! I want to "heed the cry of souls at hand!" I want first to recognize them, to hear them! "Oh, Father, may I be as focused on You as Your Son was while here on earth and while He is yet still as He dwells with us."
If you have any quotes you'd like to share with me, I'd love to read them!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Dayenu
Last night we experienced an abbreviated Passover meal with our families. It was truly amazing to me, and honestly made me want to sit in on an entire Passover sometime (3-4 hours long!). During the meal we recited the Dayenu. Dayenu translated means "That would have been enough". The Jews recite this, recalling the many blessings God has poured out on them even though He could have stopped at one point or another. We were challenged, then, to think of our own Dayenu; so, here is mine...
If He had merely rescued me from my sin, Dayenu
If He had only brought me Church mom's and Christian friends, Dayenu
If He had given me only one church family, Dayenu
If He had given the opportunity for one mission trip, Dayenu
If He had just brought me to Bible college, Dayenu
If He had given me a Christian husband to minister with, Dayenu
If He had only made me a wife and a mother, Dayenu
If He had only provided the essentials, Dayenu
If He had only given me a ministry inside my home, Dayenu
If He had only let me experience one dream, Dayenu
If He had only given me peace, Dayenu
If He had only given me FAITH, Dayenu!
And a quote by Mother Teresa that gave me joy today...
Christ is longing to be your Food. Surrounded with fullness of living Food, you allow yourself to starve. The personal love Christ has for you is infinite - the small difficulty you have regarding the Church is finite. Overcome the finite with the infinite. Christ created you because he wanted you. I know what you feel - terrible longing, with dark emptiness - and yet, he is the one in love with you. I do not know f you have seen these few lines before, but they fill and empty me:
'My God, my God, what is a heart
That thou should'st so eye and woo,
Pouring upon it all thy heart
As if thou hadst nothing else to do?
God's love is so amazing! "Amazing love, (truly) how can it be, that you my King would die for me?" It is a love I was and am pursued by; it is a love I will pursue my whole life!
Monday, April 6, 2009
The Normal Christian Life
Ok, about every Sunday during worship service, as I'm singing along with Nathan (and plenty of others to drown me out thank goodness!) I start thinking about the words that I'm singing. I start internalizing what they really mean and start praying that I'm not singing them in vain. I want to live them out the other 6 days of the week! So when I sing about the "carpet being worn" I want to really be on my knees that much or when I declare "I am free" and "salvation is here and it lives in me," I want my life to reflect that!
This week we had an extended worship service, and I was truly extended in worship! There were moments of standing and praising and moments on the floor bowing in awe of all He has done in my life and in the lives of people I love. There was also a wonderful time to be had on the front row as "my girls" and I truly celebrated God while jumping, dancing, and singing! (My calves still hurt; ain't no better way to get an excerise in!)
I started thinking about the words "salvation is here and it lives in me." I started praying that God would teach me what that looks like and that I would begin to live like that! I have just finished the book Climbing by Rosalind Goforth. It is a simple book with a simple cover and simple stories within, but the lessons are anything but little. The impact of the memories recalled by Mrs. Goforth have had such profound effects in me.
I hope that all of us would seek the "normal Christian life", and when times come that we trade it out for a hopeless one I pray we will but remember Mrs. Goforth's words, "I seem to lose sight of my failures in the multitude of His mercies."
Have any of you found a life of victory? How has that changed the way you live? Any promises from His Word that has helped you? I'd love to hear from you! Have a blessed day!
This week we had an extended worship service, and I was truly extended in worship! There were moments of standing and praising and moments on the floor bowing in awe of all He has done in my life and in the lives of people I love. There was also a wonderful time to be had on the front row as "my girls" and I truly celebrated God while jumping, dancing, and singing! (My calves still hurt; ain't no better way to get an excerise in!)
I started thinking about the words "salvation is here and it lives in me." I started praying that God would teach me what that looks like and that I would begin to live like that! I have just finished the book Climbing by Rosalind Goforth. It is a simple book with a simple cover and simple stories within, but the lessons are anything but little. The impact of the memories recalled by Mrs. Goforth have had such profound effects in me.
At the end of her book she recounts a time when she was able to attend a conference and how the message, about how God really wants Christians to live, changed her life. "...the Christian life as God had not only planned it for His children but had made abundant provision for their living it. He described a life of victory, not defeat, of peace and trust, not struggle and worry...All through his address, I kept thinking, 'Yes, it's wonderful, but I've tried so often and failed; I doubt if it is possible'...(But) I saw clearly what God taught, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that the overcoming, victorious life in Christ is the normal life God has planned for his children." She goes on to ask these questions: "What would happen if we all believed God? Would we justify ourselves in speaking the irritable and irritating word? Would we dare spend time in reading that which would soil or desecrate the temple of Christ's pure Holy Spirit?" Along with these words she records this promise from God's Word, "God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of the glory"
(Col. 1:27)
I am hoping to take some time studying the scriptures to find out all that "God would make known" to me. I want a life without worry or struggle...I want a life of victory. Some things I do know about "this life" is that the world I live in "has nothing for me" except worry, struggle, and disappointment. I know that if I'm going to find and live a victorious life it is only going to come through seeking first His kingdom and His righteousness. I know that if I'm going to pray for a life wholy devoted to Him, I'm going to have to stop devoting myself to things that aren't of Him. I know that if I'm going to live like salvation is here, I have to believe it! My thoughts toward Christ will have to remain "Hosanna, blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord!" instead of getting disillusioned and frustrated because He didn't do things the way I thought He would. I hope that all of us would seek the "normal Christian life", and when times come that we trade it out for a hopeless one I pray we will but remember Mrs. Goforth's words, "I seem to lose sight of my failures in the multitude of His mercies."
Have any of you found a life of victory? How has that changed the way you live? Any promises from His Word that has helped you? I'd love to hear from you! Have a blessed day!
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